Until you sit down and assess everything you are facing you never really understand how strong you are. You can have a 5 year plan with annotations and pictures but nothing ever really goes that way. There are blips and hurdles and there will always be things that will prevent you from reaching your goals but never let this deter you. Challenges are there to be faced and battles are there to be won, just never let your emotions get the better of you.
You feel like surrounding yourself with positivity is the best thing you can do and to a certain extent it’s true. Your mood changes, you become happier and everything gradually gets better but in that one moment, when you’re sitting alone thinking about everything going on and wondering when will you get your shit together? I promise that daunting feeling won’t last long. And I promise it’s going to be okay.
You may feel like you’re carrying the world on your shoulders, like you’re trying to do everything in your power to make things work, you tolerate people’s actions because you know what it feels like to be treated that way and you would never for a minute want them to feel the same and you shrug things off because you see the bigger picture and that’s more important than irrelevant little things. But when it comes down to it and you’re lying in bed, those little thoughts at the back of your head seem to somehow creep out and decide they want to pin down your emotions and let them take over your mind. Never let them.
I’m not saying don’t be open about your feelings and put up a wall, I’m saying that it’s okay to have a moment to yourself, it’s okay not to be perfect. It’s okay to not have it together every single minute of every single day and really it is okay to be emotional and watch Bridget Jones whilst singing “All By Myself” (not cool). But the worst thing to do? Is never talk about it. It’s okay that there are days when you want to chill on your own and not talk to the world but never let those days build up.
Talk to people about your feelings, if you need to say something? Say it! Make it work with each other, tell each other how you feel, you should never have to hide that! Be honest and be comfortable! There are people out there who care so much for you and no doubt about it there are always going to be people you’ll care for too. Everyone faces obstacles but when you tackle them together it only makes you stronger! Treat others how you want to be treated and if you know that sometimes you just want to talk, rant or even moan and complain chances are your friends might want to do that too! You never realise how far a simple “Hope you’re okay,x” message can go. Don’t always wait around for people to come to you and ask how everything is, remember you never know what battles people are fighting and a simple “How you doing?” can go a long way. Sometimes you feel like you might be complaining a little too much and you might be a little too annoying but if excuses like that prevent you from texting or ringing your friend, then are they really your friend?
They say you always accept the love you think you deserve and the second you have to contemplate whether someone wants to hear about your day or even if they’re going to be interested in talking to you is the minute you need to realise you don’t deserve them. You deserve so much more.